Jan 6, 2012

Oh My Gosh! Is this it, am I going into labor? Is my water about to break?


I am a full on nut bag now. At 35 weeks pregnant every time I get the pang of anything remotely related to preterm labor I freak out.  The first 33 weeks of my pregnancy if anything changed in the slightest I was paranoid about my baby not being ok.  You know if my “morning sickness” went away, or I would not feel like complete crap for five minutes, or he would not move like he did the day before.  Now in addition to still worrying about him not being ok, I freak out about going into labor.  Call me paranoid or whatever you want, I am a first time mom who has no frigging idea what is going on. 

I had the preterm labor scare at 33 weeks where I spent 4 hours having cramps and Braxton Hicks. I went to the hospital only to find out I was just dehydrated. The other day I was standing in a Walgreen’s, and had a bunch of strange shooting pains cross my belly. All I could think was, “This is it. I’m going into labor!” I am going to open Niagara falls all over the floor! I keep having horrible thoughts about my water breaking in the worst places.  Last night I had a nightmare that I was on a city bus and my water broke everywhere, I got kicked off the bus, had no money or phone to call my husband...AWFUL!  I’m totally freaking out over here!

I honestly don’t even have a reason to think I am going to have this baby 5 weeks early!  My sister went full term with my nephews.  Even I stayed in my mom for 42 weeks!  If Karma is real I will be more than thankful this baby is coming out of the sunroof at 39-weeks. I mean I cannot figure myself out… I don’t want him to come early, I know how important it is that he stays in there as long as possible.  I also absolutely hate being pregnant and cannot wait to feel human again.  I am scared of delivery, yet I have this whole “shit or get off the pot” mentality of lets just do this already!  Seriously, do you see what I mean? I am totally freaking out over here!

The other night I got up to pee and had terrible lower back pain, guess what,  “OH NO AM I GOING INTO LABOR?”  It’s comical I know, paranoia will destroy ya for sure! Truth be told, as much as I am so incredibly tired of being pregnant, I would rather him stay in as long as possible. I by no means want him one day earlier than necessary. Maybe that is why I am so scared he is going to come early?

The bottom line is that I am a first time mom that is completely clueless.  Every little feeling scares me, every pang stops me in my tracks. I keep telling myself to calm down and try to get it through my head that he is staying in the whole 39-weeks.  I think if I can get myself to believe that I will not be such a basket case all of the time.  So far not so good… Trust me If it were possible to will a baby out with worry, he’d be on his way out right now! 




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5 comments:

  1. I'm a week behind you, and I am so glad I'm not the only one that is paranoid about this! I feel like I must be crazy sometimes.

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  2. My water broke as I was getting up from the couch. I had consistent, uncomfortable back pain the entire night before and joked that I would go into labor the next day.
    I showered, shaved and enjoyed my last quiet moments alone as I waited for my fiance to come home from work. Once we got to the hospital, they did a litmus test to verify that my water did, in fact, rupture. It came up negative. I had a little freak out moment there - insisting that I did NOT pee myself! They did another test - positive. My OB wanted a definitive answer and ordered a slide review (amniotic fluid "ferns" under a microscope). The results? Inconclusive. So they sent me to ultrasound where it was determined that I had a normal amount of fluid in the amniotic sac and, therefore, my water had not broken.
    To make a long story short... 16 hours later, my daughter was born. As her head was crowning, my doctor remarked, "Wow! I guess your water did break yesterday! Ready to push?"

    Whenever your big boy arrives, it'll be the right time.

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  3. Your blog has been a saving grace for me the past few weeks! At 32 weeks preggers, I am so grumpy with all the aches and pains, not to mention feeling like a beached whale every time I have to get up from the bed to go pee (roughly 17 times per night). A few weeks ago, I googled "sick of being pregnant," and I could almost hear the angels singing when I started to read your blog. Sounds backwards, but reading your words makes me feel less alone, and therefore better! I now complain less to my husband, family, and coworkers because I feel like I get out most of my pregancy-angst while yelling, "Eff yeah!" at the computer when reading your posts. Anyway, just wanted to send you a big THANK YOU for your words of honesty!

    -Third Trimester Tyrant in Washington State

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  4. LOL! I LOVE that you call yourself "Third Trimester Tyrant!" My husband was just telling another expecting dad, "Just wait until she hits the third trimester, she will really start laying into you." I shouldn't laugh at the poor guy, but it is kind of funny. Plus, I'm the one carrying the baby, if he catches crap that's the least he can do!

    Anyways, Thank you for your kind words and encouragment to keep bitching. I went through a phase where I thought I should tone it down... Thanks to fabulous comments like yours, I know my purpose is to bitch and bitch loud!

    All the very best to you and your family!

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  5. I'm 29 wks and my friend went into pre term labor and its freaked me out that it will happen to me too so I'm overly paranoid.

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