Aug 29, 2011

I’m so sorry to the World for being such an angry and cranky pregnant member of society...

I am so sorry to the car full of girls I screamed at for not going when the light turned green.  I am so sorry to the paper guy I bought my paper off of this morning, I know you were just trying to make small talk, I just couldn’t be bothered to return it.  I am so sorry to my husband for biting your head off for...everything.  I am sorry to my mom, brother and sister for not being a supportive active member of the family.  I am sorry to the rest of society that I have only one attitude, bitch.

First of all, it is neither easy nor satisfying to be a raging lunatic.  It is actually painful to feel this annoyed and frustrated all of the time.  My back and chest hurt from the insane amount of frustration I carry around all day.  Before baby if I screamed and cried really hard I would be drained and happy again for at least a month.  Now it seems like the minute I release the anger and frustration I make room for twice as much more.

I am so sick of being a miserable, cranky, angry bitch!  I really am!  I wish I was my old happy self.  I promise I used to be a VERY happy, VERY easy going, choose my battles wisely kind of person.  In fact I was closer to “doormat” than “aggressor” by far.  Now I am the first person to want to start a fight or explain how you are an idiot with a crappy idea.  God forgive me I know not what I do or say until I do it, and 9 times out of 10 I somehow  feel like it was the right thing to do or say!

Oh, how I hope this too shall pass.  I am not nauseous all of the time anymore and I am sleeping better.  I ate well yesterday and today and really feel like all of my first trimester issues are behind me.  It is very disappointing and sad to say that I would happily go back to that to avoid this evil angry symptom I seem to have acquired.  It’s been 3 weeks now and I hope I get back to my happy self soon.  If not, I will seriously go get some therapy because I’m even sick of myself!

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4 comments:

  1. KARA BEAR OF COURSEAugust 29, 2011

    NOW NOW; THIS TOO SHALL PASS, ALTHOUGH FOR ME.. IT STUCK AROUND! DONT HATE YOURSELF, YOU ARE DOING A GREAT JOB GROWING THAT HUMAN OF YOURS AND IT TAKES ITS TOLL ON YOU! REMEMBER Be who you are and say what you feel, because
    those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind- DR. SEUSS ANOTHER SEUSS QUOTE I LOVE
    Today you are you, that is truer than true. There is no one alive who is youer than you.
    SEE YOU SOON!

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  2. "Don't worry about the world coming to an end today. It's already tomorrow in Australia."
    -- Peanuts

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  3. Aww man, I was just feeling better from first trimester sickness and blues. I hope this is not what is coming for me. But I have some experience with the anger...typically it's one of my stages of depression.

    I am still getting the crazies, just not as severe as before. Now it feels like I drank too much caffeine, less like I want to crawl out of my skin.

    And for the first time this week I feel truly grateful, happy, and excited that I am having a baby.

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  4. YAY,Foodpixie!! I am so happy to hear you are coming out of the haze of sickness and into the wonderful happiness and excitment of pregnancy!! I pray the angry avoids you... Peace be with you. ; )

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