Aug 20, 2011

I'm a big fat pregnant cry baby!

So far week 15 has brought me freakishly uncontrollable tears. I am now convinced that pregnant women keep the Kleenex Company in business. I have become a silly sobbing mess. I used to be able to hold in the tears, now my eyeballs are flowing rivers with worthless dams! It's so embarrassing crying all of the time, over anything.

I cry tears of joy, sadness, excitement, boredom, fear, pain, oh hell name an emoting and I've cried over it in the past three days! Yesterday morning I cried on my way to a client's because of song lyrics. Then I cried because I couldn't stop the tears from the stupid song and got mascara all over my face. I had no choice but to stop at a Walgreen’s to get stuff to clean up my face and put it back together. I could tell the girl who checked me out wanted to ask if I was ok. Thankfully she didn’t because that would have started a Chernobyl like meltdown.

Then I cried at the doctor when I found out how expensive the pregnancy and birth were going to be. When I finally stopped my doctor came into the room and we heard the heartbeat... The dam broke again and the river of tears started flowing with a vengeance. THEN my mom stopped by after the doctors’ appt with some of my late grandmothers things… It's a wonder I didn't have to go to the hospital for dehydration yesterday!

It is insane how uncontrollable the crying has become now.  It happens so fast, it’s like I have cried half the river before I even notice the tears. My poor confused husband doesn't know what to do or say. Especially because I cry happy or sad. What he does know for sure is not to tell me I'm being silly or to just stop...

I hate to say it but I'M TIRED OF BEING PREGNANT AGAIN!! Dammit... It was just a couple of days ago I was feeling good… Now I want to scream again, nope cry. It was one thing before when I felt like crying and the tears would well up and I could choose to fight it or give into a little sob.  Now I feel like crying and I do! FYI, I tried that whole fanning my face thing while blowing out of my mouth really hard… worthless.   


I love this baby but this pregnancy is like a maze of symptoms I cannot seem to traverse! 

Two confused parents=One amused baby Hopelessly we are trying raise a baby who is clearly smarter than both of us. April is an award-winning writer and blogger. Her work has been published in over ten countries and four languages. From books to newspapers, to print/online magazines and everything in between, you can find her work. For more on April, Visit AprilMcCormick.com

4 comments:

  1. KARA BEAR!August 22, 2011

    I CRIED OVER EVERYTHING TOO, ALTHOUGH IM NOT PREGO ANYMORE, I ALMOST CRIED OVER TONER THE OTHER DAY!!! YES, WE ARE GIRLS... STRONG WE STAND, BUT BEHIND IT ALL... WE CRY, WE DONT NEED A REASON!!!! WE ARE GIRLS, THATS OUR REASON :)

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  2. I am 15 weeks 1 day today. This weekend I cried because my husband was talking about raw chicken and it was grossing me out. Then I realized how stupid it was that I was crying over raw chicken, so I was not only crying, but in between sobs I was laughing hysterically. These hormones have me all whacked out!

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  3. @Kara... I Love It! I'm a Girl so I'll cry if I want too! @ Julie. LMBO!! I'm sorry but that really is so funny! BUT, I can totally understand the "hysteria" of it all and how bad it sucked at the time. It's a wonder our Husbands don't call the straight jacket brigade on us!

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  4. 15 weeks and still crying over everything, mostly adverts weird but true lol

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